Življenje pač ne bi bilo življenje, če se ne bi kdaj pa kdaj kje kaj zalomilo ali pa bi skrenilo iz začrtane poti. Mogoče ti da to večji zagon, ali pa enostavno ne veš, zakaj se ravno tebi zalomi. Možgani se kar naenkrat razdelijo na dva dela; ena polovica ti govori, da te bo pot že pripeljala do tja, kjer boš srečen, da s teboj ni nič narobe in da moraš vztrajati pri tem, kar ti je ljubo, druga polovica pa se stalno oglaša, da je res smešno, da si sploh pomislil, da ti bo uspelo, da spodbuda drugih sploh ni bila spodbuda, ampak majhna, sladka laž, ki ti je vlila lažno upanje.
Tako. Prepir v moji glavi se polega, verjetno vas zanima zaradi česa se je sploh sprožil. Recimo, da je povezano s študijem, recimo, da s sprejemnimi izpiti in recimo, da mi je to močno udarilo na letos pridobljeno samozavest. Ampak brez skrbi, se mi zdi, da ostanek mojega majhnega ega ne bo takoj popustil.
Life wouldn't be life, if from time to time, something wouldn't go according our plan. Sometimes this gives you strenght, but other times you simply don't know why id that happening to you. Brains suddenly decide to start a war between two parts of them. One part is telling you that you will get to your happiness somehow, that you shouldn't give up. The other one, however, is telling you that it's funny that you even dared to try, and that support of others wasn't a true support but just a big white lie.
The fight in my head is calming down, but another one will surely start in no time. Let's say that is connected with colegge, let's say that is connected with exams for the Academy of fine arts and let's say that my failure damaged my confidence that I've been collecting for the past year. But, don't worry, I think the small piece of my ego that still remains won't give up so easily.
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